Drinking thinking sinking feeling

It's one of those things that no matter what, no matter how strong you've become, no matter how many pills you've popped to cover the faze, it still seemingly captures you and brings the wretches of your heart to it's very knees. It's one of those nights. I want so much but I feel as if I'm competing with time and time is winning. I see you in everything I do, and i cannot help but miss you, even though you are lying right next to me.