a year and several months ?

says rommel, it only takes a year and several months till all our plans unfold and become real. But what am I supposed to do meanwhile? Wait around, rely on our "plans". Why should anyone set their life around someone else? im still so young, I refuse to sleep, I refuse to stay in one place, I refuse to settle down. What if our plans never come around, what am I left with? Nothing. I have this whole life ahead of me to start thinking about "planning". I dont want to be one of those adults one day that regret. That all they long is to be young once again so they could take advantage of it. I want to be able to look back and be content with how I used to be. I feel like im rambling and telling you things you already know.
Im scared ya know, just like you are. But im not going to waste my time pretending im 26 when in reality im just 16. Im not going to rely on anyone but myself, because ive come to realize how even the people that claim to love you the most can be the most decieving of all.