stupid stupid love

Yesterday it was Greys birthday and it was all good we all freeloaded nasty. But then i had one of those heart to heart with Ally. She was stressing over petty issues dealing with boys and i got so into the conversation. It eventually led to me crying and realizing how im not one bit over rommel; and i hate myself for it. i hate the fact i love him like this. I havent cried in over a month, ive been numb for a month.There is not a day that goes by that i dont think of him. All of this resulted in me writing him an note which i think made me feel worse. But whatever, i gave the note to marcos to give to rommel. hopefully he doesnt contact me any time soon. i dont even know what i wrote, i dont even know
anything.