These Things Are My Motives Accept Them.

It wont be the last post you write in relevance to me. We both know that silly.

Dearest,
Youve said so much that I find it impossible for you to take it all back in a matter of moments. Stop trying to convince yourself otherwise, be sure of what you felt. stop trying to convince your heart and your mind that you never felt anything but "attachment" towards me, because boy, we were so in love. You telling me all these things about "never evers" doesnt make me go away it just dissapoints me, how fake you are. Even to your own self. Point is, neither of us know what we want. Its not a matter of choosing between people. Im just going to let Time choose it for me. Call me young call me naive, call me anything you'd like. But im doing what feels right to me. You never did think about anyone else other than yourself. Im not telling you to wait, because i might never come around. Stop playing ping pong with my head. Get off your fucking high horse, get off that pedastal youve created for yourself. Im free to do whatever i please, without any remorse. You are free to do the same. I dont expect anything from you anymore, and all I ask from you is closure nothing else. You were my first but not my last. Youll get that position in my life and nothing else. Your a memory, your the past. Rommel I meant everything i said to you, beyond contrary belief. And every moment i was with you, i felt amazing. For a long time you were my sun, you were everything. Sadly, youll never give me any recognition any credit for anything. and its sad how things unfold. Things are hopeful for you,
"and I hope when you think of me years down the line
you can't find one good thing to say
and I hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way "